Monday, January 31, 2011

Fear????

I am so tired of being afraid. God's word tells us 365 times (hmmm 1 for everyday of the year?) Fear Not. So why do I still struggle with it. WHY can't I just give all my worries and fears to God and let HIM sort it. Why do I feel the compulsive need to fix it myself. Over and Over I face this struggle. A few of you may know the situation my husband and I have been in for almost 3 years now for those that don't it is an all to typical story of  injury, job losses, repossessions, bankruptcy and now foreclosure.  During this time of struggle and trial God had provided our every need. We give God the glory for all He has done and we testify to it, So why in spite of that do I still worry and fret? I am so frustrated by it. I pray "All is yours Father, Your will be done, not mine " I feel peace and then a bit later the old fears creep back .I am so tired of this struggle, this fight, I want to be a good and faithful servant of The Lord, but I feel I fall so short of what God wants from me, I have messed up so many things. Others tell me to remember that there are people in worse situations than we are. I KNOW THAT! It does not mean that what is going on in our lives isn't hard and difficult and at times so horrible we can barely function. I pray everyday for God to allow me to be a blessing to someone else.
GRRRR I am tired of dwelling on this.
How do you face your fears? How do you cope with struggle?
I think I'll go fix a cup of tea and spend some time with God.

4 comments:

  1. Hi!
    I think that at the end of each day, when you've done what's right ~ you can rest knowing you've done your best.
    I've started reading Ann Voskamp's book, One Thousand Gifts. I've enjoyed her blog, A Holy Experience for two years now, and have gained some wonderful perspectives on finding the holy in everyday life and on giving thanks ...
    wishing you a peaceful heart ~
    Maria

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  2. My dear lady,
    We are given as much as we can handle. This I read somewhere in the Bible. We are in it together. Times are hard for us all and it's our friendship that will help us all though.

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  3. i too have been thru your story, Jenny ~
    something that i have learned is to
    'take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ' ~ that's
    'every thought that raises itself against the knowledge of God' 2 Cor 10.3-4
    since you know that fearful thinking isn't coming from God,& is actually raising itself against the knowledge of God, these are thoughts that need to be captured and rejected.
    we're also instructed on what direction our thoughts are to take in Philipians.
    and also that God has NOT given us a spirit of fear or intimidation, but a spirit of love, power and a sound and disciplined mind. so this takes practice to discipline our mind as in the first instruction above.
    then to 'cast all your cares upon Him for He cares for you' is an intentional choice. i choose to cast THIS care upon You, as the thoughts opposite to your knowledge of God.
    and always to praise God! always! it will defeat every other thought! the minute you turn your heart & mind to praise everything contrary is defeated. and that's the sacrifice of praise that is so valued by God. praising BEFORE you see the end result...
    God also promises to KEEP your heart & mind guarded by keeping your thoughts fixed/focused on Him...
    i pray this is of some blessing & H Spirit counsel to you today ~
    Much Love FHC

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  4. Thank you ladies.
    Your friendship and advise means so much.

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