I am so tired of being afraid. God's word tells us 365 times (hmmm 1 for everyday of the year?) Fear Not. So why do I still struggle with it. WHY can't I just give all my worries and fears to God and let HIM sort it. Why do I feel the compulsive need to fix it myself. Over and Over I face this struggle. A few of you may know the situation my husband and I have been in for almost 3 years now for those that don't it is an all to typical story of injury, job losses, repossessions, bankruptcy and now foreclosure. During this time of struggle and trial God had provided our every need. We give God the glory for all He has done and we testify to it, So why in spite of that do I still worry and fret? I am so frustrated by it. I pray "All is yours Father, Your will be done, not mine " I feel peace and then a bit later the old fears creep back .I am so tired of this struggle, this fight, I want to be a good and faithful servant of The Lord, but I feel I fall so short of what God wants from me, I have messed up so many things. Others tell me to remember that there are people in worse situations than we are. I KNOW THAT! It does not mean that what is going on in our lives isn't hard and difficult and at times so horrible we can barely function. I pray everyday for God to allow me to be a blessing to someone else.
GRRRR I am tired of dwelling on this.
How do you face your fears? How do you cope with struggle?
I think I'll go fix a cup of tea and spend some time with God.